Tennyson on Music, Sports & LA Life

2006-06-29T15:42:00.000-07:00

2006-04-05T13:12:00.000-07:00

Finally, I am writing again!
Well not much here but I have been writing some of my screenplay. Yes, I know very original, living in LA and writing a screenplay. I hope it (the screenplay) will be original. It is from my life experiences so instead of research I am delving back into the depths of my memory. Which is particularly tough due to my blurred state of mind most the time. The memories that remain however are pretty vivid due to the extremity of my past. I grew up what I like to refer to as a Young Urban Entrepreneur (sure I was raised in the suburb but thats not the point). Perhaps a better description would be the one that came from my Cousin who referred to me as the "Hustler" of the family. True since age 9 I have been working and finding creative ways to earn money. Granted it started out the typical, washing cars and mowing lawns. But thats when I learned of my aversion to manual labor. So at age 12 I had a business licsence for selling baseball cards. And would tend bar at my parents or brothers party's. By the time Junior High came around, yeah, I would sell or trade just about anything.

If I can capture half potential on the page, and get the structure down, then, well who knows...

So I have decided to start it as a series of short storys and I will see how it goes. I may submit the first one to some literary mags to get some feedback before I continue.

Its scary to put it on the line, yet I feel as alive as I have in a long time.

2006-03-16T10:04:00.000-08:00

Today I have a job which some would love to have while I find it tedious and boring. I have to drive north 3 hours to Santa Maria to pick up the famous Jane Russell. Then drive her to her house in the valley. If I am lucky I will be getting home by 8.

In case your wondering I am not a driver, but sometimes I feel like that is all I do. Jane Russell will be doing some work for us in the city tomorrow so I am getting her in town.

I am not looking forward to it but at least I will be driving a brand new hummer.

The worst part is I already had big plans to sit by the big screen and watch the tourney start!

2006-03-14T15:36:00.000-08:00

So tonight the lakers play against the new and improved Sacramento Kings along with Ron Artest. The Kings have been dominating at home without a loss in the past 12 games at home in Arco Arena. I am hoping that will be enough incentive to bring them out of the funk they tend to play in against mediocre teams. That and the fact that its the queens for god sake. These kids better understand the hatred that we as laker fans feel towards this team. Yes the good old days of beating our dear old friend Vlade are gone. Funny how I loved Vlade while he was here (the 1st time) but the best thing he did for this franchise was get traded for the pick which would later become Kobe.

On the personal note; I have essentially called myself out. A self imposed challenge if you will. I suppose it was necessary. We all have expectations placed upon us from society, family, friends, and worst of all ourselves. In my particular case I never have to worry about others because their expectations don't compare with my own.

I am an extremist I have a rollercoaster lifestyle. When I hit my spike financially I was not the type to flaunt it. As a matter of fact nobody how well how was doing at the time. So I am mostly known throughout the family for the valleys rather than the peaks. So in the eyes of my family, for me just staying employed and out of jail is a big win.

Why would I want it to be any other way anyway? Why would I want them to expect greatness I want to surprise them with it. How would that be, you finally reach your pentacle of greatness and you say "look mother I cured cancer", "it's about time" she says.. No thats no good either.

So anyway this is why I will motivate myself, to greatness as it should be. I don't expect to have anything serious accomplished in the next year 3 months and 2 days, but I must start somewhere.

So today I start with the little things in my life I need to catch up on. Banking, DMV, & Post Office.

It starts with the small things.

2006-03-13T15:28:00.000-08:00

Do I Care too much about Sports?

My Lakers are the High School Tease. The chick with the nice tits, which you get to touch but not go up her shirt, let alone actually get to see them.

Thats right they have lost to another bad team again and just after they managed to beat San Antonio & Detroit within the past week.How do you beat the two best teams in the league and then lose to a bad team? Mental Errors. Simply put this team is young and they dont have the mental toughness to stay consistent. And now Mihm is gone from what looked like a season ending ankle sprain.

It has gotten me to wondering.

Do I have the mental toughness to stick through the winable challenges which will inevitably face me through the pursuit of my dreams? As with all dreams, the first requirement would have to be faith. The big dreams require almost a blind faith. It typically takes so much work to accomplish anything significant, and in order to go through that much effort you usually need to believe in the payoff.

I imagine the true happiness would come if you find the beauty in the voyage regardless of the destination. Don't consume yourself with questions for which you have no certain awnsers for. Just make sure you can be proud of what your working for and how you get there. To overuse another cliche as I love to do. Life is a sport. You use intelect when you can but ultimately it comes back to your readiness and instincts as an animal.

I am about as confident as I think you can be without being a pretentious ass. Yet if I look at my life objectively, I can't deny the fact that there is a conflict there. Meaning my actions don't always illustrate that confidence. For instance; I work a myriad of professions. None of them exactly blue collar, yet I am not likely to make it to the top of my field continuing in this "jack of all trades" fashion. I must focus, I am knocking on 30's door, for god's sake. Okay I do know how ridiculous that may sound(depending on your age), I do know I am young and that most people change professions 5 times (0n average) per lifetime blah blah, blah.

I did have early success in business, but its a double edged sword, the thought of going downhill since 20 is pretty harsh. And I have always expected such huge things from myself its a bit overwhelming at times.

So yeah I think I may be looking a little too deeply into the cosmic connection between my beloved lakers and their youthful lacksidasical (yup that's how you spell it, I looked it up) attitude towards their daily efforts, and my own over all self performance evaluation. I have just decided as I type these very letters down, hereby decree "I will make a big deal out of turning 30".

I always have been a goal oriented type and have held a certain sense of pride in the fact that I can focus on things when I want them. But as I now feel a need to sort of hype myself up a bit in life and my goals.

So how much can I really impact my truly important goals in 1 year 3 months and 3 days?

2006-03-09T16:44:00.000-08:00

Reasoning and just disturbing insights into the wonder that is my mind.

I see myself a modern day poet/philosopher.

Without all the poetry and pontification a typical poet/philosopher would do.This will be the place for me to do my magic.

I have always been an experimental type. As far as my experiments go, this one will be quite harmless.

I will commence my first launch........ now.